Em has been tapped to cover GQ Magazine’s “Gods Of Rock”" issue, alongside The Rolling Stones’ Keith Richards (makes sense) and Lil Wayne. During the interview portion, Marshall opens up about his drug-addled past.
“So I had to go in and make new songs to replace them. In my head I was pissed off: ‘Oh well. Songs leaked. F–k it. I’m just going to take a bunch of f–king pills and go in there and have a party with myself.’ I’m sure the more pills I took, the goofier I got.”
“Look, every addict in rehab feels like everyone’s staring at them. With me? Everyone was staring at me. I could never be comfortable. There were people there that treated me normal. Then there were a bunch of f–king idiots who aren’t even concentrating on their own sobriety because they’re so worried about mine. They’re stealing my hats, my books—it was chaos. Everything was drama in there. And at the time, I didn’t really want to get clean. Everybody else wanted me to. And anyone will tell you: If you’re not ready, nothing is going to change you. Love, nothing.”
Hit the jump for more tidbits, courtesy of RapFix. SHAKE UPDATE: Back to the top with the actual cover.
“I came to in the hospital and I didn’t know what the f–k happened. Tubes in me and shit, f–kin’ needles in my arms. I didn’t realize I had [overdosed]. I wanted my drugs—get me the f–k outta there! I think I was clean for two weeks. I was trying so hard—I was trying to do it for my kids—but I just wasn’t ready.”
“I had a feeling in my arm that was weird, man. Like, it really freaked me out. So I went to some people I trust and said, ‘Look, I know I need help. I’m ready now.’ I got a room in the same hospital where I overdosed, and I detoxed.”
“I’m just this shy kid. And I get thrown into a classroom with more people I don’t know, and I’m going into my shell and I’m worried about how my shoes are bummy as f–k and I’m wearing Salvation Army clothes, and these kids are behind me and they’re making comments and whispering, and I don’t really know that they’re talking about my clothes but I feel like they are, and they’re talking about my haircut. I don’t even know how to speak up for myself, because I don’t really have a father who would give me the confidence or advice. And if you’re always the new kid, you never get a chance to adapt, so your confidence is just zilch. You’re thrown out there to the f–king wolves. Hence when N.W.A starts saying F–k you to the police and to everybody—’F–k you who doubted me’—holy s–t, I want to say that.”
“The thing sobriety has taught me the most, is the way I’m wired—why my thought process is so different. I’ve realized that the way I am helps with the music. Sporadic thoughts will pop into my head and I’ll have to go write something down, and the next thing you know I’ve written a whole song in an hour. But sometimes it sucks, and I wish I was wired like a regular person and could go have a f–kin’ drink. But that’s the biggest thing about addiction: When you realize that you cannot—for f–k’s sake, you can not—f–k around with nothing ever again. I never understood when people would say it’s a disease. Like, ‘Stop it, dickhead. It’s not a disease!’ But I finally realized, F–k, man—it really is.”
“I would hear people saying this and that about Relapse. Certainly I’m not going to sit on the Internet all day and read what Sam from Iowa is saying about me. But I’m a sponge. I’ve always been a sponge.”
“On an emotional level, I want my music to connect with the same kid who I was. So it was like, ‘Okay, let me get serious. Because I feel like I’m being wrote off right now, and I’m kind of on my last leg.’ I felt like the underdog again.”
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Meka is a hater…How you not gonna mention Lil Wayne in the title of the post….SMH
Cli-City said this on October 18th, 2011 at 12:55 pm
A$AP Rocky gets no love here? Homie just dropped a new one.
HoesOnMyDickCuzILookLikeKenMasters said this on October 18th, 2011 at 1:05 pm
Great read. Will cop the mag when I see it.
Toon said this on October 18th, 2011 at 1:26 pm
i feel like ive heard about this drug addiction a million times over.. dude cant come up in an interview without mentioning it. you dont see wayne whining about it to the same agree do you?
CodyB said this on October 18th, 2011 at 1:38 pm
co sign @ cli-city
theBroKing said this on October 18th, 2011 at 1:40 pm
And not a single fuck was given that day
who cares said this on October 18th, 2011 at 3:22 pm
WFT does eminiem chain sign mean?
b0ren0i said this on October 18th, 2011 at 3:45 pm
ILLUMINATI DUH
adasda said this on October 18th, 2011 at 3:50 pm
what do eminem and and lil wayne have to do with rock music?? are all the other gods of rock dead or something????
freshyboi said this on October 18th, 2011 at 4:12 pm
I have one question. there is a million non-rap rockers that are iconic and famous but they chose to have two rappers and keith richards. We all know he can rock but honestly, there are no other guys out. I mean lil wayne, eminem, and kieth richards… It does not mix. At least make it 4 or 5 dudes so that it balances out the classic rocker and rap super star ratio.
Am i the only one who find this weird?
It could be anyone. I mean springsteen? or bon jovi? or Lenny kravitz? or Thom yorke? or even Jack black? otherwise it looks like a celebrity drug rehab gq edition.
Detroit89 said this on October 18th, 2011 at 4:20 pm
Everything about this is yawns and nonsensical Bullshit but im sure EM stans will eat it up thus the 100 plus thumbs up. shouts to mr. richards, the other 2 not so much.
Your mother's dinner date said this on October 18th, 2011 at 4:22 pm
Why does Eminem always look like he just got his period??? Every picture, I swear…
Besides, who the fuck still gives a shit about this crybaby in 2011???
uncleDiss said this on October 18th, 2011 at 6:15 pm
Why does Eminem always look like he just got his period??? Every picture, I swear…
F’reals, what does this whiny rich twat have to be so angry about?
uncleDiss said this on October 18th, 2011 at 6:19 pm
1. They probably asked him about the drug past thing. Don’t ask like artist CHOOSE what they’re supposed to answer on in interviews.
2. Dudes chain does NOT represent “Illuminati”. It’s an AA necklace. I swear, idiots these days will say that ANYTHING is Illuminati…
“Besides, who the fuck still gives a shit about this crybaby in 2011???”
Probably the 4 million + people that are still buying Recovery, still buying Hell: The Sequel, and let’s include yourself. Who actually took the time for such a thing…
Pauly Dee said this on October 18th, 2011 at 7:56 pm
I love all the Eminem haters commenting on all the Eminem stans saying that they’ll comment and praise him.. But they’re actually the only ones commenting and bitching.. Fuckin idiots
Nobody said this on October 18th, 2011 at 8:32 pm
This is dope. The Em interview is super solid. “Soundtrack to a Long Ass Flight”: http://www.kidswastingtime.com/2011/10/soundtrack-to-long-ass-flight.html
Seriously said this on October 18th, 2011 at 8:49 pm
If Hov ain’t in there they lose all credibility period.
360 said this on October 19th, 2011 at 8:49 am
illuminati…. don’t think that this collabo of artists is by some how a coincidence … deny the symbolism all you want. fuckers. truth shall set you free.
Killuminati said this on October 19th, 2011 at 8:00 pm